I have not drawn and/or been paid for my efforts in five years other than my day job, which celebrates my minor skills in Photoshop frequently at my usual hourly wage that would make a "professional" artist (or myself, in high school alone) recoil in horror.
It doesn't matter. Where I once loved to paint and create, I now dread art. It is a chore that I cannot be paid enough for.
Fucking sad, and I hate it. I wish I never accepted payment for this fucking shit.